As an introduction to my monthly mailing, I thought I would share a little about my JOURNEY WITH FOOD, how my MINDSET TRANSFORMATION has been the key to feeling better over the past 4 years. My journey with food started over 15 years ago, when I was diagnosed with IBS. My young self thought I had it sussed. I knew my cure had to come from food, sure when you have digestive troubles of course food is the answer as Dr google so informed me.
My body continued to call to me, and 4 years later I was diagnosed with an under-active thyroid. My lifestyle had not changed in those years and my body was struggling. My food intake was moderately better but I had not considered that this might only be one factor. With hindsight, its a wonder I ever changed because my mind was so fixed on one aspect of my life that I failed to notice all the other detrimental habits I had going on. Food was easy though, I could pacify myself making some changes, drawing up lovely food plans and trying quick fixes with a result of making feel better… for a couple weeks. I would excuse periods of digestive chaos and the emotional trauma that ensued because I was eating better. It was 10 years after my thyroid diagnosis that I got the final calling but this time the calling came in a very fiery red and outwardly evident manner, I had now developed guttate psoriasis. You see I am one of those Autoimmune folk, when you have one you’re chances of getting another are quite high.
And this last straw was the catalyst for change for me, the one that stopped me in my tracks and changed my patterns of behaviour for the long term. Boy did this battle challenge me, and before I hear anyone telling me that celery juice or shark fish oil and specific carbohydrate diets will cure me, I shall stop you right there and enlighten you that it hasn’t. Plenty of dietary changes have helped me into remission, as did light therapy and addressing my poor lifestyle habits. After countless attempts of sticky plaster treatments I finally got down and dirty and tackled my bodies’ malfunctioning with a holistic, integrative whole body approach that relies on me to be AWARE of myself every whole single day.
If you want to hear the emotional bit, keep reading but if you just want my 5 tops tips for those suffering with IBS, psoriasis or indeed hypothyroidism then scroll on down.
During my active IBS years I know see that food was an obsession, the more I tried to figure out my triggers the more stressed I got as I couldn’t find the answers. I did get into exercise, but it was a very socially accepted way for me to remain competitive with myself. Unless I was the best at it, then I wasn’t achieving. And this is where all the learning has been, working on accepting this perfectionist head of mine but MANAGING it. I became aware of how much I was afraid to change my habits. I became aware of how much time I spent thinking about what other people thought of me. I understood that there were aspects of my life I wasn’t tending to. I was valuing my own self worth based on what I THOUGHT others thought of me. I used to justify why I was a stay at home Mom. I fought with things in my head until I learned the art of accepting. I truly believe that my path was meant to be this one, because until your experience then you don’t really learn.
In recent years, my relationship with food, exercise and other people has changed. However my relationship with myself has changed the most. I have finally found a way to accept me, as I am, all the parts of me. It’s been hard to achieve this balance, it’s been hard to truly love myself because of who I am not because of what I do. Its been hard to shut up that little fella inside my head telling me this is all a little too “whoo whoo” and to get back to a real job.
I came up with a phrase a while back and I think its very true of my journey. I’ve had to slow down to speed up. I am no longer looking at the finish line, I am enjoying the race, learning and experience as I go. Changing at your own pace is the hardest thing you have had to do when you want to become accountable for your own well-being. There is always someone else out there doing better or more. However as I slowed down, my health has improved in leaps and bounds. I am full of energy, feeling the best I have felt in years. I eat, sleep, exercise and meditate so much better not because I have to, but because I want to and am grateful for the real benefits I feel every day.